Maybe if I make this public then I will be more accountable. This Term leaves me with only Monday and Wednesday morning, with the Mondays more unflexible because the beginning of the week is always sluggish (here I go again, providing time allowances which I think I don’t need). But really, what happens on these vacant hours of teaching? Preparations for the next day’s lessons, is what happens. So this leaves me with only Friday, a day I should dedicate to writing, and Saturday, a day I should spend solely for research and finalization of my overdue dissertation proposal. Sunday is a time to meander and write poetry. I should have more Sunday places to go to (preferably inexpensive cafes), since home isn’t always the best place to write.

As for night time, I am usually tired; besides, the little child at home demands attention that this is also the only time to play with him and read him stories. Meanwhile, the early hours of the morning (possibly 3 to 6 AM) are usually the most profitable hours for online editing and proofreading jobs that usually come after midnight.

So this calendar could work.

Technically, following this disclosure, I should be working on my dissertation today instead of this blog. Yet the main reason I’m here now is that I wasted yesterday on a Filipino teen romance movie, by director Jadaone, and so I wasn’t able to write. (On second thought, I can say that I watched that movie for research, after all, I’m writing a YA novel — for and about teens…) Yesterday, a supposedly writing day, I commuted to a friend’s house because I was craving for sleep. I was thinking that since I could not sleep longer at home, that maybe, I could go to my friend’s place and sleep there — but she wasn’t there and I ended up on the road again, back in a mall, overspending on ice cream because it was too hot. By 7 PM, I was so tired of my useless adventure that I could not even play long with the toddler.

The reason for the lack of sleep is a TV series. For three consecutive nights now, I’ve been watching “When the Heart Calls” on Netflix. I really like this inspirational series, but this meant that for three days now, I have been sleeping at around 2AM, usually after watching at least three episodes. Of course, I’ve been waking up late and last night, I wasn’t able to answer calls for online jobs. So I’m here today, using the university library’s computer, to meet the deadlines I missed .

Of course, the question remaining is: when will I ever read? A regular time for reading should have a slot in this calendar. But now, I only have Sunday night left. Reading should be a worthwhile thing to do overnight before the busy weekdays. Hopefully, I can be focused on my reading fare and not waste any more hours.

So help me God.